Book 3 - Page 53 (1/2)

It was a great little Italian joint that I’d have bet money was run by the mob.  The place was open twenty-four seven, and it was always completely dead except for a few overweight Italian guys that chatted quietly in the corner.  One of them, the owner, would almost always stop by our table to make sure that we’d enjoyed our meal, giving a long speech about taking care of his customers.

Super mob vibe.  And come on, this was Vegas.

The food was so good that I kept coming back, regardless.  Bev and I had a bi-weekly lunch date there, rain or s.h.i.+ne.

Usually, Andrew and I met up at one of the restaurants inside the casino, but I didn’t think that was a good idea at the moment, for obvious reasons.

Not because I was hiding it, but more because I didn’t want to deal with any potential drama because of it.

Okay, maybe I was hiding it a little.  Though I wasn’t doing anything wrong.

I told myself that firmly and repeatedly.  Somehow, it didn’t help.

We met for lunch a few times a month, even post breakup.  That’s just how we were.  I thought we’d always be good friends.  Andrew was just that type of guy.  Even if he’d rather not have been broken up, he respected my decision.

He never resorted to dirty tricks or Troublesome smiles to get what he wanted from me.

Of course, he didn’t have those in his a.r.s.enal.

In fact, Andrew didn’t have an a.r.s.enal.

That had always been my favorite thing about him.  Too bad it hadn’t been enough.

It was hard to sit across a small table from him and not make comparisons to a certain tattooed bad boy.  Impossible, actually.

And it was hard not to feel guilty at just how unflattering those comparisons were for poor Andrew.

I ordered a salad, Andrew ordered lasagna, and we picked at our food while we waded through some stilted conversation.  It wasn’t usually like this.

I felt like s.h.i.+t for even being there.  I should have canceled, but I’d been too stubborn to admit to myself that my life couldn’t just keep going on as usual.

“So are you seeing anyone special?” I asked, feeling way too hopeful about it.  The day he moved on would be a big weight off my conscience.  I knew I’d broken his heart, and though it’d been several months since all of that had gone down, I still felt bad about it.

He winced slightly.  “I’m still carrying a bit of a torch for you, if you hadn’t noticed.”  There was no censure in his tone, just honesty.

That was so much harder to face.  I looked down at my plate.

I thought I’d been clear for a while now, but apparently not.  Had I inadvertently been stringing him along?  It had never occurred to me before, but, of course, I hadn’t been sleeping with someone else before.

That thought threw me, the part about someone else.

Tristan being the someone else was just off.  It felt wrong to even think it.